Typhoon came

I really appreciate people’s kindness and friendliness. Most of friends of mine including my family gave me warm welcomes of backing to Japan. I was so happy with I saw them again and they looked fine.

Now I’ve got a new job at an art gallery and I’m working as an illustrator as well. Furthermore, I decided to try to enter university next year for learning Art Management. My friends say that I’m really fortunate because I went to the UK and got a great skill of English, as well as made many good friends. In addition, now I’m planing to go back to the UK again. This is also a golden opportunity for my career even though I don’t have a real job, my own house, and a life partner(I mean, husband.). I can’t agree with these opinions anymore.

However, in the fact, I’ve been feeling too much stress for the past couple of weeks because of working and studying, I guess.

After coming back from Europe, I’ve been doing my best all the time - looking for job, browsing on the Internet for researching universities, talking to as much friends as possible to get their opinions, going to English school ,and studying English by myself. Everything seems to be going well but life is not so simple. I completely understand that everybody has a lot of issues and anxieties for their future and nobody thinks life is fair.

I suppose the readers, who is reading this post, (..if there is any reader though), might not catch what I’m trying to say exactly but even neither do I because I’m very confused now.

Anyway, there is a certain thing : I don’t believe I’m suit to work in Japan. I think I can do most things since I’d been working so hard for about 3years before I went to the UK and I almost know about the Japanese business manner. However, I’ve never felt comfortable with it. Of course I don’t know if I’m suit to work in other countries as I don’t have any experience working in overseas. For these things I’m still not sure if I’m a good business person but not in Japan or just I’m not good at working everywhere. I just feel scared if I’m a latter one.