Life is not fair

Today I began to use a new textbook for studying English grammar as I finished the first one.

The first one was so difficult and thick. Even though it's generally for high school students, for me, most information were totally new. I can't believe that I'd studied such things when I was at the high school. Yet I don't care as my high school life was about 10years ago and I didn't really need to remember those things so it's impossible to keep remembering.

I still have to so many things!! ..Most times this fact motivates me but very few times it also makes me really upset. Studying something is never ending which is good since we'll never get tired. However, I just can't help imagining and wishing if only I was born as a native English speaker or I had learned English seriously since I was a kid. Of course I am happy to be Japanese, but If I could skip the step to lean English, my life would be much easier and cheaper (because I totally payed huge amount of money for learning English.).

Anyways, I really believe that leaning Japanese is much, much harder than leaning English from no knowledge and I know some English native speakers who use Japanese very well. So I should stop dreaming and complaining, just do my best.

I just remembered that one day someone said to me, 'Life is not fair.'.

What is happy/good/bad/benefit/disadvantage/etc. depends on person. That's why people struggle and try to make their life happier and everything makes each person's life totally unique.